i had a dream that i could fly from the highest swing.

so, I feel like my life has been pointless. Well, actually no. That sounds extremely depressing. But like, I've never taken huge risks, I've never done what I wanted. And I feel just like a hypocrite when I say 'Go for your dreams' because I'm not practicing what I preach. Because .. I'm scared. I'm scared I'll be rejected, turned down. I'm scared that I'll suck at something that I'm truly passionate about. & That would absolutely break my heart. I think I just need a break, away from the constant routine. It's all so dull. I'm really glad I'm leaving the country soon.